☀️ Release. Reclaim. Rise: The Healing Process That Changed My Life (Ep.33)

What if the challenges, fears, and repeating patterns in your life didn’t actually begin where you think they did?

In this deeply personal episode, Nicole pulls back the curtain on the exact healing process she uses to move through blocks, release fear, and transform at the root level — both in her own life and with her clients through the Akashic Records.

Nicole shares the vulnerable story behind her fear of being seen publicly as a healer, the persecution wound she uncovered in her Akashic Records, and how releasing those energetic patterns completely transformed her ability to step into her power.

Inside this episode, you’ll learn:
✨ Why repeating patterns continue showing up in your life
✨ How unresolved emotional and energetic wounds can keep you stuck
✨ The 3-step healing framework Nicole uses: Release • Reclaim • Reactivate
✨ How soul fragments, karmic wounds, and subconscious fears impact your reality
✨ Why forgiveness is one of the most liberating healing tools
✨ How energetic healing and activation work through the chakra system
✨ What it truly means to rise into your next-level self

This episode is a powerful introduction to the transformational healing work inside Nicole’s 8-week Akashic healing journey, RISE.

If you’ve been feeling blocked, disconnected, fearful, overwhelmed, stuck in old patterns, or like you’re meant for more… this episode is for you.

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An 8-Week Journey to release the heaviness and blocks that have been holding you back, reclaim the parts of yourself that have been disconnected and are ready to come back online, and activate your greatest potential in all areas of your life! We start May 26th!
👉 JOIN RISE: https://email.balancebynature.com/rise 

✨ FREE ABUNDANCE ACTIVATION MEDITATION ✨
Clear energetic blocks, open your channel to receive, and align with the frequency of abundance with Nicole’s guided Akashic meditation.
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Transcript

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Welcome to Heal with Nicole Mixdorf. Let the journey begin. Welcome back, beautiful soul. I'm your host, Nicole Mixdorf. I am an Akashic Light Healer and an intuitive guide. And I am going to be pulling back the curtain to show you the process that I go through anytime I come upon any sort of roadblock on my path. I'm going to teach you the exact steps that I follow so that I can not only get past it, but clear it from the actual root so it no longer has to be part of my lived story, which allows me to rise. So this journey begins in the Akashic Records. The Akashic Records are a gateway to the memories of the soul, to every single experience that your soul has ever gone through throughout this lifetime, throughout all lifetimes, and through your family lineage as well. So when I access my own Akashic Records, I am able to ask questions and get clear insight about anything that I want to know about my life. And that's the same thing when I work with my clients. If I'm accessing your Akashic Records, then I'm able to access all of your memories of every experience that your soul has ever been through because there's a memory of it. It exists and it's already inside of you. We don't have to look outside of ourselves for the answers. The answers, the healing, everything that we've ever wanted, it already lives inside of us. And I love this healing modality in particular because it helps us really get to the root very, very quickly so that we can resolve issues really fast. And it's been transforming for me in every area of my life. So as we go into our own Akashic records, we are being given this opportunity to really find where something begins. Because oftentimes in our life when we're faced with challenges, whether they're physical challenges you're dealing with in your body, or maybe there's challenges in your relationship, maybe you're having financial concerns, maybe you're feeling blocked at work, maybe you have this weird repeating pattern that's just coming again and again, or maybe there's something going on in your family's lineage where you're noticing patterns showing up where several different members of your family are all dealing with the same issue, which could be on any number of things. Any of those times where you're feeling blocked in some way, shape, or form, I guarantee that it didn't originate in this lifetime. There's sometimes where you know maybe there was a childhood wound, something like that, that you can kind of pinpoint in your own memory, the things that you actually remember. You're like, yeah, this makes sense that it started here. But oftentimes there are deeper layers of unresolved experiences that we already had that are pulling forward into this lifetime because our soul genuinely wants us to resolve them. You see, before we're born, we set up these different soul contracts to have certain experiences, to learn certain things, to go through life with certain other souls in our soul family. So you picked your parents for a very specific reason. They were either supposed to support you and guide you on your path to becoming who you are, or they were supposed to challenge you in a way that makes you rise up. And that's the harder path in those types of relationships, but it was necessary in order for you to do what your soul wanted you to do in this lifetime. So perhaps you had a soul contract in this lifetime to finally find your voice, to find your voice and really be in your power. So, in order to find your voice and be in your power, your soul's like, huh, let me put myself into a family dynamic where people are trying to take my power away from me, where people are making me feel invisible, or I have to be small so I don't get hurt. And the whole point of it is that you're supposed to be able to overcome it and learn the lesson and grow and find your voice, find your power. And when you do that, that is you evolving on your soul's path. The gift is who you become on the other side of the challenge. So the challenge itself is just the catalyst that is showing up on your path in order for you to uncover the gifts that you are meant to receive. That's always the way. There is no challenge put on your path that you are not capable of overcoming. You're supposed to overcome it, but we have free will as soon as we're born. We get to make our own choices. And sometimes our choices are aligned with this greater soul plan, and sometimes they're not. And that's okay. But sometimes if we don't fulfill what our soul wanted us to do in a lifetime, we get to the end of that life. We do our life review and go, oh, look, I did this, I did that, I did this, I learned here, I evolved here, yay, yay me. But then we go, oh, but this, yeah, I didn't do that this time. Okay, let me try it again in the next lifetime. And I'm gonna do it with the same, same people that I did it with this time, except this time we'll be brothers, or this time we'll be married, or this time I'll be the mom and you be the son, or whatever arrangement you decide to come up with, because we are everything to each other and across lifetimes. Sometimes you're male, sometimes you're female. Like it totally changes all the time. And what's fascinating though is that if there's something that didn't get resolved in this lifetime, you're like, ooh, let me try it again, but it didn't get resolved in that one. And they're like, ooh, let me try it again. You might have two, three, four, five, six lifetimes where something is still unresolved and it's causing you problems. So the beautiful thing about the Akashic Records is that we can uncover where is the original wound, where is this origin point of this particular issue, of this particular challenge in my life? Is it from this lifetime? Is it from a different lifetime? Did I inherit something through my family's lineage that's contributing to this? And oftentimes it's multi-layered. You might have different layers that you have to go through, but the process that I go through in releasing it so I can rise is exactly the same. And so it's a three-step process. And it's the same process that I take myself through when I do healing for myself, and it's the same process I guide my clients through as well. So the first step of this process is release. We have to release what is holding us back and what is keeping us from living the life that we really want for ourselves. Because inevitably, if you're feeling stuck, if you're feeling challenged, if something's bothering you, it's because something is in the way. Something is literally holding you down and keeping you from doing what you want. So it's really powerful to be able to go into your own Akashic Records and ask, okay, this issue that I'm dealing with right now, what is causing this? Where is this from? So I'll give you an example. So recently I just delivered a three-day step into your power Akashic journey. And this was a big deal for me to deliver this because it was the first time that I really very publicly put myself out there to lead a big group healing experience where I was showing the world my spirit gifts, my soul gifts. I was showing the world how I do akashic healing. I was showing the world my light language. And there's a vulnerability piece there that was required for me to do that. And I was terrified to share these gifts in public for a really long time. It scared me because I was afraid of being judged. I was afraid that my corporate professional audience was gonna think I am crazy. And that terrified me. And what's so interesting is that when I went into that in my records and I started asking, what is what's blocking me from posting more on social media? What's blocking me from sharing this side of my life? Because you guys, honestly, I was doing healing in the Akashic Records for clients for years privately, hiding in my little cave, not sharing, not telling anyone what I was doing. I wasn't promoting it, I wasn't announcing it. Nobody knew that I was doing this work other than the people I was working with, and it just kind of spread via word of mouth. That's it. I didn't announce it because I was really afraid and I never really understood why, because I'm a very public person. I've been speaking on stages for 20 years. I love doing keynotes, so I have no problem being seen. I love speaking in front of groups, so that wasn't it. So what was it? Well, when I dove into my own records and I started asking about it, it turned out that I have a persecution wound, or I'll say I had because it's gone now. I had a persecution wound that needed to be released. So that went back many lifetimes. I've been a healer for many, many lifetimes, which isn't surprising. Anyone who is in the healing arts in this lifetime has been a healer many times before. We tend to bring that forward. So I've journeyed into lifetimes where I was the medicine woman, where I've been the shaman, where I've been the oracle, where I've been the priestess, where I've been the witch, where I've been the healer. I mean, I've done every iteration of healer that there is. But some of those lifetimes, I wasn't safe to practice what I was able to do publicly because there was, there were a lot of people that were afraid of my abilities or what I knew. And there were witch hunts that were happening. And I definitely had a lifetime as a witch where I was persecuted for the gifts that I had. And there was more than one lifetime that was like that. And so a lot of healers tend to have that persecution um wound. And it's in the throat, in the throat chakra is where it gets embedded. And it causes us to be afraid of being seen. It causes people to play small. And it doesn't have to be for you, for example. Maybe yours isn't about being a healer, but maybe if you're afraid of showing up on social media or putting yourself out there in a bigger way, there was something in your past where you had an experience where it wasn't safe to be seen. And maybe that's even from your childhood where it wasn't safe to be seen, where you had to make yourself invisible because if you didn't, that meant physical harm to you. So we all have different stories, we all have different journeys. This is just the one that I was on. And when I dove into those experiences, there were a lot of energetic connections that were holding me into that. There were unresolved soul contracts, there were some deals and agreements that I made in that lifetime that were still holding power. There were belief systems that were created from those experiences that were energetically attached to them, belief systems like, I'm not safe to do this, I'm not safe to be seen. Like I'll literally will die. Like if somebody sees me doing this. And the soul remembers. So even though that didn't happen to me in this lifetime, the soul remembers. And of course, you know, different things are gonna come up and we're gonna try to block ourselves from doing the thing that we even really want to do because it's not safe. We don't think it's safe. And so it creates this energetic, almost like a little cage that holds you back. Or sometimes I experience it like having having like chains around your ankles, you know, with bowling balls and that are holding you back, this big weight that you're just carrying that's stopping you from just really rising and taking off in your life. So the biggest part is letting that go. And we've got to release all those energy cords and all that energy that's holding us in place. Sometimes there's a karmic wound that's attached to it too. And a karmic wound happens anytime we go against a soul contract. So we actually do the opposite of what our soul meant for us to do in that life. Because sometimes we just don't fulfill a contract. That's fine. But when you do the opposite thing, that creates this karmic wound where we now are going to be presented opportunities again and again and again to learn the lesson and choose different. So anytime in your life that something is a pattern where it shows up again and again and again and again, it's because there's something you haven't learned yet. There's a lesson that your soul is meant to receive and integrate. And then you get to choose differently. And as you choose differently, you clear that karma on your own. But what's beautiful is that when we go into your Akashic records and we can uncover that yes, there is a karmic wound attached to this, I can just tell you what's the wound, what's the lesson, what are you meant to learn, what are you meant to integrate? Got it. Here is how you are meant to move forward. These are the choices that are more aligned for you. Do you want to carry this karma forward now or are you ready to be done with it? Because the beautiful thing about this healing work is that you don't have to hold it forever. You're not meant to. We can release it at its root, at its origin point. And when you do, it dissolves. It no longer exists. You don't have to try to rewire your mind with new belief systems because that old belief system, it doesn't exist anymore. So you are just free. And a big part of the releasing is yes, clearing the energy, but it's forgiveness. You really do set yourself free through forgiveness. And forgiveness is just the choice to not suffer anymore. It's the decision that you've suffered long enough and you don't want to carry that energy forward anymore. And you give yourself permission to put that burden down, to let it go and really move forward from it, liberated from it. And a lot of people will get confused about forgiveness because they think that it means that the other person is off the hook and it absolutely does not. If the other person, you know, created karma for themselves from hurting you in a certain situation, they're gonna have to deal with that on their own. But it's the forgiveness is the choice that you no longer need to be connected to that person or that experience any longer. It no longer needs to drain your energy. You get to set yourself free from it, which is the most liberating thing you can really do. So that's a big part of the releasing work that we do. And then the next step is the reclaiming piece. And that's when we reclaim all the lost pieces of ourselves that got broken off and stuck in those wounds, in those past experiences that we've gone through. So when you have a layer of trauma that is deep enough, it's almost like a little piece of yourself breaks off, a little piece of your soul, and we have these soul fragments that get stuck in that experience. And it leaves us not feeling whole. It leaves us not feeling complete. It's almost creates a kind of anxiety feeling. And what I've noticed working with a lot of clients is that people who suffer from severe anxiety tend to have a lot of lost soul fragments that they've lost along their soul's journey. And when we reclaim those pieces and we recode them back into their energetic architecture, they finally get to feel peace. They finally feel whole. And the anxiety just lifts and their life gets to change because they finally reclaimed all of the parts of themselves. Now, they're still belong to you. They're still in your energy field. They're just not right in the spot where they need to be. So we get to reclaim all of these pieces and restore you back to your wholeness. So sometimes in a traumatic experience, we might lose different parts of ourselves. You know, if I went through in that persecution wound, for example, going back to that, let's say one of those lifetimes, I probably lost my voice. I lost my voice, I lost my confidence, I may have lost my power, I may have lost my faith or or my hope, you know, my truth. There's different things that you can lose along the way. In other experiences, you may have lost your love or your connection to other people. I mean, there's any number of things that you can lose in these experiences, but then we get to reclaim all of that. We get to integrate it back into who we are in this lifetime, in this timeline, so that we can feel whole, so that we can have all of that back and we get to be all of who we can really be, which is such a beautiful, beautiful experience. And then the third part of the process is the reactivation. And that is when we get to activate our greatest potential. So, what is it that's really going to help us rise into who we want to be, into our greatest idea, our self-expression of our 2.0 version of our life. So, for example, in coming back to that persecution wound and me wanting to rise up publicly as a healer and be safe sharing my gifts with the world and not being afraid anymore, I was ready to activate my power. And so, yes, I reclaimed my power from those past experiences. But in this lifetime, it was about how do I activate the highest potential of my power? How do I activate the highest potential of my voice and my truth and putting that out into the world? And the way that I do these activations is through light language. And light language, I have a whole episode on light language, so feel free to find that episode on light language and you can learn a little more, but I'll give you kind of the gist of it. Light language is the language of the soul, and it's not meant to be understood intellectually, it's something that's meant to be felt. And light language can come through in many different ways. Sometimes it comes through for musicians as lyrics. Lyrics that they wake up in the middle of the night and the song is just formed in their mind. It's just there. And they wake up and they get it all down. And then when they share that music with people, when people hear it, they have like a visceral reaction in their body. It's like you can feel the music. So if you think back about any song that has really ever touched your heart, right? Or maybe it's a piece of artwork where you've gone to a museum and you've seen this really beautiful piece of art and it just speaks to your soul. Have you ever had that happen where sometimes you almost feel like moved to tears by something? That's because there's light codes that are literally embedded in that piece of art, in that music. So light codes can come through as spoken word or song. They can come through as hand gestures, movements, mudras that you make with your hands. It can come through as dance, like an ecstatic type of dance. Sometimes when you see a dancer on stage who's just so in it, like you can see they're just channeling something, right? Or maybe you see a musician on a at a concert who's just playing the guitar, but they're just so in it that you could tell they're just one with that instrument. That is when the light codes are coming through and like we feel it. It's something to be felt in the body. And these light codes are very activating. It can activate dormant DNA, which is the epigenetics, right? And it can literally change your epigenetics by activating certain things that have been dormant. It can literally turn on and off genes in the body. You can activate different elements and aspects of yourself. You can also use light language for clearing. So in the release work that I do, we can use light language for releasing. I use a different technique, but light language can be used for that too. You can use light language for healing as well. So if you or somebody that let's say I'm working on needs some healing, I can call in healing codes for that person that are going to amplify and And accelerate the healing process in the body. It's fascinating. So for me, the light language comes through as spoken word and through hand gestures that I that I do. And I'm able to activate whatever it is that I need. And I do that for my clients too. And you feel it. Like you really feel that activation. Usually people will tell me that they feel this lightness. They might feel warmth. They might feel tingling in their body. They might feel an expansion in their heart center or somewhere else in their body. It's a pretty cool experience to be able to activate what is really ready to come online. And so those are sort of the three steps that I guide myself through, that I guide my clients through when I do an Akashic healing journey with them. And the result is that whatever the block was that had come up that was getting in the way of really being all that you are, it's gone. And now all of a sudden, you're just free to do what you want. Suddenly you just start speaking differently. Maybe where you didn't have a voice, you have no problem speaking up. You have no problem setting a boundary. Now I'm not afraid to post on social media. Whereas before I felt so blocked around that, I didn't understand why I was so blocked to share more publicly. And it was because I was terrified that I was going to be judged, that I was going to be persecuted, that something bad would happen to me if I shared this very intimate part of myself. But now that I've released those wounds, now that I've activated my own power, my own voice, my own truth, right? I'm not afraid anymore. And it's the most liberating thing in the world. I get to show up as my authentic self, that I get to share my light with the world because that's my mission. That's my soul's purpose in this life. I am here to heal people. I am here to awaken souls. That's what I'm here to do. I'm here to raise the consciousness on the planet. And that's a gift. And it's not fair to everyone who's soul aligned to receive that from me if I don't show up. If I'm afraid and I'm not showing up and I'm not doing what my soul came here to do, then all of the people that would have otherwise benefited from it, they don't get that. They get, they're still stuck on their path. And that's not the way it's supposed to be. But when you're connected into your purpose and you're doing what you came here for, it's always about being of service. It's always how can I elevate others? How can I help humanity? That's what your purpose is. It's how can you take your gifts, your passions, the things you love doing the most, and find a way to use that to help other people. That's really how you find your purpose in this life. And when you connect to it and you really live that purpose, it is the most fulfilling experience ever. It just feels like a magnet drawing you in, and you just know you're doing exactly what you're meant to do. So last week, as I released and hosted the three-day Step Into Your Power program, I felt like I stepped into my power and I am in my power. And it feels so good because I'm not scared to be seen anymore. I get to just be my authentic self. It doesn't matter to me if someone else thinks it's weird. It just matters to me that I am showing up the way that I'm meant to. And when I get to touch other people's lives and they tell me how it's changed their life, and all these people keep telling me that, oh my gosh, I feel so different. Thank you so much. This changed my life. People had tears, they felt tingling. I mean, it's just amazing. People were saying they got better sleep than they've had in weeks. I mean, absolutely just so life-giving to me to hear that. It makes me remember, yes, this is what I'm supposed to do. So I encourage you, as you are facing a block in your own life, to do a little bit of inner work around that, to explore that and ask yourself, what could this be connected to? What am I being held back by that I don't need to hold anymore? What can I release so I can set myself free? What parts of myself are ready to come back online that I can reclaim? And what part within me is ready to activate and rise into my next level self? And that's the journey. So right now I'm launching Rise. It is an eight-week Akashic journey to help you release all the blocks that have been holding you back and to reclaim all the pieces of yourself that are ready to come back online and to rise into your greatest potential. I mean, that's really what the program is. And we get started next week. So if you want to learn more about that, you can check out the link in the show notes and hear more about that program. But I'm really excited. It takes us through the biggest blocks, through each one of our chakras, which are the energy centers of the body. And each one of your chakras is where those wounds are held. So in your root, that's your safety. And so any wounds that you had that make you not feel safe in your body are gonna be stored in there. So that could be abandonment, it could be rejection, it could be fears, it could be anxieties that are sitting in there. It's gonna be different for all of us. But in this program, we get to uproot, clear, release what the biggest blocks are that are sitting in there. In the second week, we go into the sacral chakra, and that is connected into creativity, ease, and flow. So, what would be sitting in there is anything that's causing difficulty, anything that's making it hard, making life very painful, anything that causes suffering is going to be sitting inside of that chakra. It's different for everyone, but we will uproot and clear and release that and we activate the energy of ease and flow so that life doesn't have to feel so hard. You can have life be a little easier for you. I mean, who doesn't need a little more ease and flow in their life? I certainly did. And I feel liberated now that I have it. It makes all the difference in the world. Your solar plexus, which is above the belly button, that is connected to your power. That's your power center of the body. That's your strength and your drive and your motivation. But we carry a lot of anger, we carry resentment sitting in there. Anything that is blocking us from really being in our power. So we're going to clear whatever is blocking that part and activate confidence, activate motivation, activate drive so that you can take aligned actions in a positive way that feels more balanced and aligned. In the heart center, you know, in your heart chakra, that's where we carry our grief and our heartache and our heartbreak and betrayal, like those types of wounds that are sitting in there, all the ways that we judge ourselves and we are self-critical. And so we get to clear all of those blocks and the armor that we've held around the heart space from not feeling lovable, not being worthy. So all those worthiness wounds we're going to clear. And then you get to activate feeling lovable, feeling connected, feeling enough, being able to really have a deeper self-love, self-acceptance. And then that translates out into your other relationships outside of you. The throat chakra, this is where we hold those visibility wounds. This is our truth and our voice. And we get to clear all of those times where we've been silenced, where we had to make ourselves small. And we get to activate our truth and our voice in the world. This will help us with being able to have better self-expression and better communication. And then our third eye, that's your intuition, that's your inner guidance, your inner wisdom. So in your third eye, that is going to be anything that's blocking you, that's making you feel confused, that it makes you have doubt. Anytime where you just don't know the way forward, you don't trust yourself. And being able to clear all of those wounds and activate your greatest potential for connecting into your intuition, for trusting yourself, for receiving your own inner guidance. It's life-changing so that you have clarity, you have focus, you know what to do and you can stay on task. And then the crown chakra is where we connect to our purpose, where we connect to our higher self, our soul. That's that's where you get to uncover why you were here, what you were meant to do, and learn how to align yourself with it, which is so powerful. And then we activate and open and align all of these chakras in the body. All of a sudden, your energy is flowing, you have greater vitality, you feel more connected to yourself. You're able to trust yourself, you're speaking your truth, you're able to move forward freely, not feeling blocked anymore. You get to be all of you, and it's the greatest gift. This is what really helps you rise. And the final stage of this program is we are going to activate your highest timeline. We get to call in that future timeline where you are doing exactly what you want to be doing in your life. And we get to see, well, what's blocking you from getting there? Oh, a belief system that you're not good enough to get there. I got it. Okay. And we'll clear all of the energetic connections attached to that. What other things? So we can clear all of those away. That opens the road up so that you can actually become the version of you that has everything that you've ever wanted. And that's really to me what it means to rise. So I hope that you've enjoyed learning about this release, reclaim, reactivate process. And if you're interested in diving deeper into your own journey, I invite you to rise with me. Check out the links in the show notes and you can find more about Rise, or you can go to my website, NicoleMickstorf.com, and you can find out more about it there. I wish you the most beautiful, blessed rest of your day, and I'll look forward to seeing you next time. Thank you so much for joining me on healed with Nicole Mixdorf. If today's episode inspired you, please take a moment to subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who's on a healing journey too. And be sure to follow me on Instagram at Nicole Mixdorf for more inspiration, healing tools, and to find out about my programs. Remember, you have the power within you to create a life of balance, vitality, and joy. Until next time, stay grounded, stay open, and stay healed.